AKA significant signs for a good book

Here ? When Forever Changes by Siobhan Davis
– (NOT WANTING TO PUT THE BOOK DOWN – WHICH INCLUDES CARRYING AN E-BOOK READER LITERALLY EVERYWHERE I GO, ALLNIGHT READING SESSIONS AND SNEAKING OUT OR IN PLACES INCLUDING TOILETS TO READ A FEW PAGES)
✔ – that’s a yes

– (TALKING WITH YOUR BOOK – NOMATTER WHERE YOU ARE AND WHO IS WATCHING YOU)
✔ – you do not want to know what I looked like while reading

– (CRYING AND/OR LAUGHING – -OUT LOUD- NOMATTER WHERE YOU ARE)
✔ – another yes – and a lot more – but I will get to that in my Esscense of this book.

– (THE INTENSE FEELING OF WANTING TO PUNCH OR HUG A VIRTUAL CHARACTER IN REAL LIFE)
✔ – PUNCHING – yeah that was on my mind mostly

– (REMEMBERING THE PLOT/ THE AUTHOR / THINGS AND/OR CONVERTING CONTENT TO YOUR REAL LIFE)
✔ – OH YES believe me that author is now on my list … on the list of authors to be very careful when starting a book. As she draws you in – keeps you there only to torture you with well developed stories and real characters. Don’t worry – Dear Author you have famous company on that list … Colleen Hoover, Jojo Moyes, Katy Evans, etc. ….. so actually almost all of my favorite authors are there. SO yes it is not a bad place to be but its also def. not the place for fluffy readings….

My Essence ?
Honestly ? I had no idea what I would be getting myself into when I agreed to read this book. I could give you a book to compare that feeling but to many people would directly know where the plot is heading so I refrain from that – actually it would be two books that I am thinking of now …
I already read two books of this author and both were solid 5 star reads so I think it is safe to say that I assumed that this book two would be a SOLID star read …

And when I reached a certain point where I found myself thinking – wow the plot never gave any indication that this would happen I actually went back to check the plot. While rereading I thought what a clever writing that Blurb was – as suddenly anything in there could also be read and understood in a way that it DID actually meet the story only I would have never understood it in that way before.

Now – after I finished the book I am at a loss – I thought I had an idea what this was about when I read the Blurb but no … this book is like the best and the worst of all the well-known books of the last years out there in that genre….

And with “worst” I do not mean writing style or anything but the PLOT itself and I also do not mean it …. Gosh – Well how do I explain it ….actually “worst” is probably the wrong word – its more the worse that you use if you ask someone how he is feeling …

I had several stages during reading so without going into the spoiler section let me describe it like :
A love story that goes wrong – you connect to the characters and you start to like them but already from the Blurb you know something is going to happen. The words in the book show you a certain direction but ONE line showed me something else because I had an experience in that area from another book.

Still the obvious signs made me dislike the male lead Dylan – but that was obviously what the author wanted. So I started to look between the lines and I started noticing where this is going – and from there on it was like a train wreck waiting to happen – like watching the movie Titanic.

I knew what was happening – I was hoping – I was begging – I was cursing – I was hating – oh yeah and lets not forget the crying …. And during all that time I wanted to stop reading because If I did not read it I wouldn’t know if I was right and it would be like nothing happened. But did I stop ? obviously not….

If I would have a complain about this book than it would be – that this book felt to real. I bet you would never have guessed that I was ever going to write a line like that. Yeah me neither ….
Life itself is messy and this plot is not different. Lines were blurred in that plot – lines that are hard limits to me and forced me to stop several books in the past but here ? Here they felt more gray then black because I somehow knew (not going into that) ……

The question I asked myself the most was “why did nobody notice” but the characters themselves asked that question too – that took my anger and it felt like I was wondering alongside the characters – kind of lost….

The plot feels like two stories woven into each other so they fit perfectly like a glove. But my love for this plot is only within one string of this story. One plot string I would have loved to rewrite because ….. (insert curse word) I needed it to be different. And the other I would have probably never finished reading because of the hard limit. But it is what it is – this plot feels real and I can not punish it for that – just because I would have liked a fairytale.

I know I am rambling and this review has no structure but to me it is honestly just like that book left me – ALL OVER THE PLACE….

So what is this book. As it ticked of all the right places in my Review Check list – it should be a 5 star read and I will rate it as such but still something in the back of my mind will remain. Which again will ensure that I will keep a close Eye on this authors next books. So in total this author did everything right ….