|To Live Again|
|The Living Series #1|
|September 29th 2015|
Three years ago, I was gifted a second chance to live, and I struggle with the responsibility of that gift every single day. Everyone thinks my life is perfect, but looks can be deceiving. I should know – I’ve become adept at living a lie. The past I tried to put behind me follows me like a dark shadow, and whatever I do, I cannot escape. Drowning in guilt, I’m dying to live again, but can’t seem to find my way out of the storm and into the sun. My life ended on the day it was supposed to start. At least no one here knows. Maybe if I lie loudly enough, I can convince myself I’m as fine as everyone thinks I am.Jayson
My life has been moving along exactly as I planned. I’m on the path I’m destined for, and nothing is going to distract me. Then Chloe Schaeffer blew into my life like a breath of fresh air, trying to steal my favorite seat in class. She’s everything I never believed was possible. The way I feel about her defies what my brain dictates, but she’s hiding something. There’s a darkness clouding her. She thinks I don’t see it, but I do, and the part of me that longs to treat the wounds of the world aches to heal her. Maybe if I can, she’ll fall in love with me. Can I convince her to let me help her live again? Or will she continue to die a little more each day, killing my heart in the process?
I just had the opportunity to read and review To Live Again (The Living Series #1) and This is Living (The Living Series #1.5) by Melody Dawn Back to Back. Both books are about the same Persons. Only “This is Living” takes places several years after the first Book “To Live Again”. And I can not advice to read “This is Living” without reading “To Live Again” first.
It was a well written, fast and easy read even if the plotline was hard to digest at times.
If I would have to sum up the content of this book in one short statement I would say, this is a book about forgiving yourself and learning to life with your mistakes.
I hope nobody will ever have to face what Chloe went through and honestly it is no wonder she is broken beyond repair. She is trapped by her past, trapped by a mistake she only had half the blame to take for if at all.
And there lies is also one of the things I found hard to understand. I can not go into detail to avoid spoiler but as far as I understood it due to a fact that was out of her control she did something. Its true she did something wrong but in the end result that would not have mattered that much anyway. And there were other persons also involved and (I might have overlooked it but) I did not read anything about what happened to them.
How could I explain without spoiler I wonder. Let me try with food… lets say you are forbidden to eat Ice-cream… but you still eat ice-cream and drop dead because someone poisoned the ice-cream. Does it still matter that you ate the ice-cream ? I believe the focus should be why it was poisoned !
You will understand what I mean when you read the book. In the end, it does not matter – because what happened – happened and no matter who takes the blame in the end it was Chloe that “did” it.
Jayson is this really sweet guy – that is basically “perfect” from top to bottom and not even Chloe can deny that, but she considers herself unworthy of live and love.
So from the moment those two meet Jayson is in for the fight of his life not even knowing what he is fighting against, which makes it extremely difficult to gain ground.
Life’s will be ruined, Hearts will be broken and in the question is who will survive.
The demons or the love …